My time at SDSS is almost up, and it’s quite hard to wrap my brain around that. Going into high school, everything I “knew” was all from watching high school depictions in movies. It was safe to say I was terrified because of what the movies showed me. It was also scary because I used to be a very shy kid (and still am to an extent) and my family was very worried about my social skills and whether I would get bullied or not. I didn’t let that rattle me and I just dived right in and tried my best not to overthink it. Over the course of these past five years I have gone through some of the happiest moments in my life, as well as some of the worst moments in my life. The good times are obviously wonderful, but we don’t grow if our lives are positive all the time. The only way we grow is through the struggle. I would not be the person I am today without all of my baggage, because it taught me valuable lessons and allowed me to keep a level head through all of the chaos. Everything I longed for in grade eight, I know have. A song that’s been released to the world, a solid friend group, and am the most confident in myself that I’ve ever been (to some extent). I didn’t know who I would be when I graduated, or what I would want to go into. As a backup plan, I wanted to go into sciences (which is so stupid, I can’t even work an oven) because I was too scared to go into music, which was the start of my anxiety. It used to be really bad, but nowadays it only gets triggered by very few things like being late to class, and putting myself out there, which is why I was scared to go into music. Letting people hear your thoughts is one of the scariest things I’ve ever done, but it’s something I had to do because I had to prove to myself that I was more capable than I thought I was. I got too comfortable in high school, and never pushed myself in school which made me extremely anxious doing anything remotely out of my comfort zone. As you know, I am a man of many classes (3 in school, one x block) and one of my favourite classes was leadership. Honestly, I owe a lot of my tenacity and nerve to taking leadership, as it took me out of my comfort zone, and allowed me to understand my reactions to things, why I was reacting the way I was, and to control that in order to be the best version of myself. Now I’m definitely not the best version of myself, as I feel we are all constantly growing and never truly reach our full potential. As I leave high school, I feel secure, which is extremely rare for me. I love who I am as a student, musician, and person. For years I’ve always tried to prove myself to people and this leads me to one of the most important things I’ve learned: never compare yourself to others. Everyone has their own purpose in life whether you realize that or not. Just because someone has more success than you, or is going to all these fancy schools and you’re not, doesn’t mean that they are better than you. Stay in your own lane. I know that I will never be the kid that the teacher uses an an example of the best assignment or something like that, but I will be the kid who is constantly pushing themselves to be the best artist/person they can be. And for Mr.Hortness, in January of last year I wrote on the front of my journal that I would have a song released, and look where we are now! Psychic is available on all platforms (yes shameless promo) but things really do come full circle. Thanks SD, take care. Connor N
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