People often tell me that they do not know what I am thinking. However, people also tell me that I am so calm, empathetic, and that I am skilled at psychological analysis. I was born and grew up in the Philippines, an island country. My uncle told me that I was famous in the neighbourhood for being very emotional. I was always laughing, crying, and running around. After spending a couple years of my childhood there, I left my home country and lived in Japan with my father. At that time I was still an emotional person, but my personality changed a lot when I was in grade 8. Frankly speaking, I was bullied about my gender. They enjoyed watching me suffer, knowing there was nothing I could do to stop them. Even though I was an emotional person I struggled to understand why I couldn't properly express my anger and frustration. This was the turning point of my emotional state. The emotions I lost first were hope and anger. This happened when I consulted the teacher about being bullied and asked her for help escaping from the endless suffering. However, since the group that was bullying me had leadership in my class and were popular people who were trusted by teachers, she was unwilling to support or help me. She said that I must have misunderstood what they were saying and that the fault was mine, even though she regularly witnessed them bullying me and knew the truth. After hearing this from my teacher hope turned to "nothing" and anger turned to "give up". However, I am convinced that by experiencing this I became stronger and gentler than before. I have come to think more about people's feelings, and I have come to understand the pain of people who are suffering or struggling. There is a saying, "A person who can cure a person's wound is a person who has a scar". The meaning of this is that anyone who can understand pain or suffering is someone who has previously experienced similar pain or suffering. There have been several moments in my life when this quote has proven to be true. Those who can share the sadness of heartbreak are those who have undergone heartbreak in the past, and those who can empathize with the fierce anger of being cheated on are also people who have been betrayed in the past. Surely I have become quieter then before and more logical than emotional. Maybe I've become a more boring person than before, but I like myself now especially as someone who can empathize with people's pain. Maybe I hang out with my friends less often than before, but I like being a person who stays home to take care of my family and enjoy time with them. There will be people who don't understand your current character and people who will judge you but you do not have to change yourself. Other people can not directly change you or cause your growth because you can only do those things yourself.
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